That word “trudge” came to mind today. As we trudge the road of happy destiny. I remember back early on, after reading that line in the BB, I disliked that description, because I thought it would be a lot easier and a better journey than just slogging along. Laboring. Not for me in my mind back then.
However, after a long time on this road, I can only acknowledge, what an appropriate word “trudge” is. It reminds me of the phrase “progress not perfection”. Sometimes I have to stop and think “I’m not done yet”.
That doesn’t mean that this isn’t a wonderful life I have found in here. It is. But what it does mean to me is that not every day is smooth. That there are a lot of challenges along the way. Unexpected pitfalls. Having to pick oneself up, dust myself off, and push myself forward. I have and I do. Thanks to the guidance of my sponsor and others.
What I have learned is that more and more I have to depend on my higher power. Often it’s kind of like that poem Footprints in the Sand. How many times I have been carried by others and the God of my understanding. Propped up and encouraged.
One of the things, which has kept me going is hope. Faith and trust. The love of others and extending the hand of AA to those in need. I’ve learned that in here. Before I came I had no idea. No concept or understanding of any of this. But here I am, trudging this road and happy to do it.
Anyway I was thinking about some of the sayings and slogans in here, which have encouraged me to stay sober.