I can’t do things perfectly. I sometimes cannot do them well. So, in the end, I just have to learn to do what I can. This is about staying sober.
The bottom line is that in all of this is my dependence on my higher power. The idea that I don’t always get what I want, but I always get what I need. And what I need is sobriety. Sober living.
In talking to an old friend today, I was reminded of what it is that helps me to stay sober. There’s always that element within me that wants to rebel. We talked about wanting to do things our way. My way is what can lead me into trouble with myself. Not a good way to go.
Surrender and acceptance and practicing this program is what I need. Not always easy. But I know that, if I stick with the winners in this program, that their suggestions will help point the way for me. I learned that a long time ago and it works…when I work it.
My incentive is to never forget what it was that brought me into this program. What got me sober. My bottom. The memory of that pain and despair and my hopelessness in my attempts to stop drinking. If ever I feel discouraged, all I have to do is to bring that memory back to mind.
Anyway my friend and I talked about all of this today. I reminded both of us of what that woman in the BB talked about. How to turn hatred into love. The miracle of her spiritual awakening. And then her final words. That she always gets what she needs in this program. And, she said, when she got what she needed, she found it was what she wanted all along. I keep repeating that for myself, because it is true for myself.