Did I do any good? I’m not thinking about being a little-goody- two- shoes or whatever that is, but I was thinking about doing the right thing.
Had a really involved weekend and then some. Was in the middle of a lot of stuff. Anger, disappointment, unmet expectations, happiness, and sadness. My part in all of this was to stand aside as much as possible. To keep my mouth shut, which I failed to do on a couple of occasions, and to play the part of keeping the peace, whenever or wherever I could.
I was certainly called upon by this program to practice these principles in all of my affairs. With the exception of a couple of failures, I think I did. Although it wasn’t always clear to me what I was doing. Prayer and meditation weren’t always available. Too involved and too busy most of the time and often didn’t even know it.
One of the things someone asked me, when I talked to them about what happened, did I take a drink? No, of course not. In fact, I didn’t think about a drink, although drinking and alcoholism did come up a couple of times. For that I am grateful.
To tell the truth, by the time things were winding down I could feel the stress I had been going through and had to take some time to step aside and pray and meditate. I definitely needed help to go on with the rest of my weekend and somehow, through the grace of my Higher Power, did accomplish some things, which I had doubted would come about.
The Serenity Prayer was definitely a large part of this weekend as we went deeper into it. It was in the mix this morning and then, when we went to a meeting today, it was the topic of the meeting. Interesting and a good reminder of what this program is all about. Exactly what I needed.
Anyway, I decided not to go into details, but just relate some of what I was experiencing and the results and some questions I had. Kind of a 10th Step and meditation combined.
The bottom line, it’s still all about staying sober.