Great questions came to mind while talking to a friend after the meeting today. The meeting fed both of our minds. We were talking about the God of our understanding and acceptance.
Lots of good things said, which served as a reminder to both of us. People admitted, as much as we are more focused on living a spiritual way of life, we often get off track and don’t accept. But overall, we do try to remember what we’re doing here. At least all of us are still sober, often in spite of ourselves. That was a lot of what was being communicated in the meeting.
Last night I was reading much of the same in a passage in Came To Believe. One man was talking about his beliefs. He pretty much said that as long as he practiced what he believed things seemed to work out. But he said that when he forgot and tried to run the show himself everything would go to hell. The same in my life.
Anyway my friend and I talked about what is spiritual? I mean, is everything spiritual or just some of it? I guess we agreed on the first thing. Everything is spiritual in our lives. It often just doesn’t appear that way to us. I often think that the answer to all my problems, each and everyone of them, is spiritual.
Later, when I had time to think, it struck me. What do I know? It’s just another reminder to me that in spiritual matters it’s dangerous to go it alone, as Bill W. said in the 5th Step in the 12&12. How often I forget what my sponsor told me a long time ago. That I didn’t know that I didn’t know. I only thought I did. That still holds true today. Maybe even more so now than it did back then.
All this is a reminder that I can’t stay sober by myself. I need the program and the people in it to help me along the way. It’s why I go to meetings and why I talk to people and them to me. We need each other. No question in my mind about that.