Today I was reminded of what was freely given to me. And, I was told, that what was so freely given to me was what I need to give to others who need it. In doing so, I was told that it would insure what I was given would stay with me. And it has.
We were talking about the Twelfth Step today, along with gratitude. I know for myself that I needed to talk about he Eleventh Step as an introduction to the Twelfth. It has always been what opened the door for me into my being able to receive and give this program away. The spiritual aspect of this program.
Back when I came in the Twelfth Step was going on everyday down where I lived and had gotten sober. That’s because there were no rehabs, detoxes, and hospitals rarely treated those who were drunk.So the phones were always ringing and we all were busy carrying the message to the alcoholics who were suffering. Freely giving this program to them.
Some of my experiences were enough to get some laughing and just as equal was the grimaces as a result of what happened on some of these. I have never forgotten a lot of these. They were very important in my life. They definitely helped me to focus on why I am here. And that’s where the Eleventh Step always comes into focus for me.
Each and everyday I try to meditate on the spiritual aspect of this program. Part of that, of course, is what happened to me as a result of coming into this program. I was always given what I needed to stay sober. And that led to me learning and practicing these Steps in my life. What introduced me to the spiritual program, beginning with the Second Step and bringing my Higher Power into my life and changing me and hopefully others like me.
Anyway, just as I said, I found it is time to stop and meditate…to once again think about why I am here. And that, of course, is to stay sober a day at a time. It is a reminder to me that I am responsible for my staying sober. No one can do for me what I must do for myself. It’s up to me to always think of myself as number one, when it comes to sobriety. Not about ego, but about my being willing to stay sober.
And this leads me to that second topic of the day, gratitude. I owe so much thanks to all of those, including my old sponsor, who so freely gave to me what I needed. And how they taught me to give this program away to the sick and suffering alcoholic. But not just the new person. I know from learning and experiences that I must also be willing to share my program with those around me. And I need to thank all those who gave to me what I have so seriously needed. And that includes my Higher Power, who I believe gives me the strength I need and the power and courage to do what is necessary to stay sober. So my thanks to all and the God of my understanding.