Had a lot of stuff going on today. Some of it not so good. Made me back up, take a deep breath, and be quiet for a time. In that time I picked up the BB and read some things, which helped me to start my day over and turn into a positive attitude.
And what was that I was reading? It was about us…me. I read what it was that made us alcoholics. What we did, what we thought or didn’t. How out of control I was. Just how sick I was. How bad I was out there. How hopeless. And then I went further on in the book to the solution. There Is A Solution. One of my favorites.
And there it was. The spiritual solution. I never forget what Dr. Jung said to the young man he was working with about his alcoholism. He might as well been talking to me. I loved what he said. “You have the mind of a chronic alcoholic.” He then told him he had never seen anyone with this recover. He could have been talking to me. Our young friend asked him if there were any exceptions. And the answer was yes.
That’s when the good doctor told him about seeking a spiritual experience. Nothing anyone, whether professional or any other state ever talked about. But here he was opening the door to not only the young man, but the rest of us from that moment on. I know that what he told him was what I did, without knowing it. After I got here I found out. But I had only gone part way. In here the BB and the people in this program opened me up to the rest. Especially my old sponsor.
And, of course, the young man did do that and became part of the Oxford Movement over here. And it was him who opened the door for Ebby T. And it was Ebby, who told Bill W. all about this and that began what I finally found in here.
I was thinking about this and that did for me what I needed. Love the BB and the program and all the people in here, who helped me find my way into a sober way of life. An impossibility, when I read what was wrong with me. The disease of alcoholism. A chronic alcoholic. And now here I am sober and living this way of life a day at a time. For me a miracle. Probably all of us.
Anyway all of this stopped me and made me grateful. It turned my mind around and changed this day for me. I look back at my old sponsor and how he opened the door for me by introducing me to the Second Step. When I look back at how this program worked in my life I am amazed. It changed me from what had happened to me as a result of being a chronic alcoholic owned by alcohol and did what the Second Step said. I have been restored to sanity.
Anyway I couldn’t help but think about the Eleventh Step, which I attempt to practice one day at a time in the morning…or evening. But always try. And it makes me say “Thank you” to my Higher Power and all those who have helped me through this way of life, starting back with my old sponsor and all my friends in here.