I always love to attend meetings, which remind me of a quite a bit of time, after I came into this program. Back then they did not get into counseling or analysis of a member’s problems. They always told them that it was for their sponsor, old timers, or professionals if necessary. What we talked about were the Steps and how we were working them, or what they were doing for us, to help us stay sober.
That’s been happening the last two days. Once again today we went into the Tenth Step and it’s effect on our sobriety and our lives. I was really lifted up during the meeting, when we talked about how that Step was working in our lives today.
Of course we all had to face the facts we were given in this program in the BB, and what my sponsor, and all those old timers told me. That we were human alcoholics and not saints. We could do all we wanted to grow along spiritual lines. But our humanity would continue to pop up in our lives. I was told that I was going trip and stumble over my old defects the rest of our lives. I know that’s been happening to me over time. And I was going to have to learn to pick myself up and dust myself off, and start my day over. Going from the negative to the positive. To ask my Higher Power for help, and perhaps others.
I know my being able to accept this has helped not only to improve my life in here, but working these Steps have modified my defects. They’re not all that powerful as they once were. Just doing this program each and everyday has changed almost everything in here. Not a perfect life, that’s for sure. But far better than it was ever before.
I know that I have to keep on trying, regardless. I know that I’m supposed to stay sober one day at a time. That’s my primary purpose. And I know that not just the Tenth Step, but the Eleventh, and the Twelfth Steps are what brings me back into focusing on staying sober. Not just me, but whoever needs my help in trying to get sober or stay sober. I also realize that I have been given what I need in here and am grateful to my Higher Power, this program, and the people in it, who have helped me. Again, thanks.