I had to go over a lot of things today to remind myself of who I am and what it is that I need to be doing. I had to remind myself of what I really didn’t know back when I came in. The truth I discovered over time was that I was pretty much stuffed with untruths within myself. I had to learn to back up and to begin to open my mind and listen to those who knew how this program worked and what it was I needed to do to stay sober and live a different way of life.
Today I was given a gift to help me to remember all of this. I got to sit next to someone, who was totally suffering and coming into this program. Talk about a wake up call. I was really touched, but knew totally what they were going through. I had to open up and listen and then be willing to help them to wake up and get the help they needed. Hoped they heard what they needed and could stay sober.
Once again I was reminded of why I am here. Watching and listening to this person who was in so much pain and despair I think woke all of us up. There was a lot of good talks going on to help them be given what they so desperately needed. I know that I was grateful for what I heard. Hopefully I got them open to talk to those needed after this meeting was over. They seemed to have become willing and open to those, who were talking to them. Encouraging.
Anyway I was once again the same as so many in the meeting, who were reminded of why we are here to begin with. To be open and help someone just like us, who are so desperate and need so much help. I know it reminded me of what it was like for me, when I hit my bottom and was ready to commit suicide. I gratefully remembered the gift of hope I was given, which helped me to pray and turn my life over.
Once again I was thankful that I am here to stay sober a day at a time. I know that was very much what was going on in the meeting today. I could see so much gratitude being given to this alcoholic. And so much the gift of a spiritual way of life. No doubt.
Made me grateful to my Higher Power and this program. Also thankful for those, who were able to give so much love and caring to an alcoholic in so much pain. Hope was definitely the gift given to them. I know I was once again hopeful and willing to help them.