Something which made me laugh, was something I learned a long time ago from my old sponsor and those old timers.That was to laugh at myself. I still do. What it does for me is to wake me up and cut me down to size. Part of the spiritual awakening. Never want to forget.
It’s what makes me aware that I’m not God. I’m just another sober alcoholic. I know that almost every morning I get up and go to the mirror and laugh at myself. A lot of times I will point at myself laughing and say, “You klutz, you’r nuts!”. And that gets me laughing.at myself. And that cuts me down to size. It lets me go out and have a good sense of humor. It helps me to recognize my place, my part in my staying sober. I’m not in charge. My Higher Power took away that alcohol a long time ago. All I could do was surrender. And it was deep pain within which brought all of this about. I was in deep despair and depression as a result of my drinking.
In fact I was reminded of this the other night, when I was reading Sandy Beach’s book, Dear Friend. Good book. Anyway, he was talking about the same thing. To have a sense of humor about ourselves. How to laugh and cut someone like me down to size. To be able to be totally dependent on the God of my understanding. Like me, he talks about our need to put our over sized egos outside of us. Worth while reading.
Often, when I’m talking at a meeting, I will end making fun of myself. Not only gets me laughing, but it does others. What I said might be what is important, but it is not really mine. This isn’t about me. It’s about this program and what I have learned in here. I know that Sandy thought the same.
All of this, for me, is about learning to grow along spiritual lines.To take my Higher Power and this program seriously. Not me. And, like I had to learn, it’s all just a day at a time. Makes me grateful for all I have been given. I need to continue to grow. How easily I can forget. That’s because I’m not a saint. I’m just a very human alcoholic and will be until the end.