One of those things, which continues to cause us to fumble and stumble along the way, can be found in the 6th and 7th Steps in here. And that’s our defects. Negative emotions, like fear, anger, and resentments. That’s exactly what I learned from my old sponsor and a lot of old timers. In fact I continue to learn that from people I work with in here, and from yours truly. Just is what it is.
I was told over and over again that these things will trip us up until the day we die. That’s because we are human alcoholics and not saints. We can pray and meditate each and everyday, but, even though we’re dealing with the spiritual, we can find our minds drifting off and our stumbling over negative emotions.
And this is where we are, when we need help. And, if I’m to stay sober a day at a time, I will need to be able to step back and pray and ask my Higher Power for help. And, if I can, ask for help from an old timer or my sponsor. Then, as I was told, to stop and start my day over from the negative to the positive, and continue to try to put this program into action.
We had an old timer speaking today, and when he reached Steps 6 and 7, he pointed out how, even after all this time in here, he can still find himself stumbling and needing help. And the crowd identified with him. I know, like I said, I did.
It’s like the Ninth Step, which has this statement: “The spiritual life is not a theory. We have to live it.” I know I have to try, and others I have talked to have shared the same thing.
Anyway, I am grateful for those, who are willing to admit the truth in here. We have to face the fact that we have things within us, which can trip us up from time to time. Again, because we are human and will be until, like my old sponsor and others said, the day we die. And our living sober one day at a time, helps us to continue to put this program into action in our lives. Makes me grateful.