Once again I was reminded today of the spiritual axiom in Step Ten in the 12&12. That whenever we’re disturbed there is something wrong with us and not anyone else. I was also reminded of what I was told by those old timers back then, that no matter what, we are going to be tripped, and stumbled, and fumbled, and bumbled, up to the day we die. The best we can do is not drink and renew this spiritual way of life.
It is amazing how powerful negative emotions can be. And I have to remind myself to step back and place my mind over these defects and pray. To ask my Higher Power for help and perhaps share with a sponsor or good friend, who can give us the support we need. Then to stop and start our day over from the negative to the positive.
However, the way I know is best to start over is to remember to stay sober one day at a time. To never forget why I am here. I need to place these virtues of faith, hope, and love back within me. To surrender my self from trying to be in control, and renew my faith in this Power greater than myself. Or, as they say in here, “To let go and let God”. And then to ask for forgiveness.
Anyway, I have learned from my old sponsor, and those old timers what it is I need to do to stay sober. To ask my Higher Power to relieve me of the bondage of self. Then to express my gratitude for the gifts I have been given, and start my day over. I am grateful for my sobriety and this way of life. Thanks.