Here I go again. The 10th Step and the spiritual axiom. Whenever we’re disturbed there’s something wrong with us. So, I did what my sponsor told me to do. I went and shared my problem with another alcoholic. That made it clear to me that I had a part in how I was feeling and had to use that 10th to help me clean the slate.
It made me laugh too. It took me back to what my sponsor said early on about me and all alcoholics. We’re immature, insecure, and oversensitive. I thought I was beyond that. Hah! Guess what? Wrong. I must still fill the bill.
Anyway I found myself disturbed today and needed to find out what was wrong. That’s why I took it to someone else to help me clarify the problem and cut it down to size. Besides we both had our stories from our past that were similar. Almost to the word. Amazing how much alike we all are. All we have to do is get open and let others know who we are and they understand, because we all have the same kinds of problems. Usually us. Or me, me, me. Hmm.
That ego. Self centered to the max. Stumbling, bumbling, and tripping over me.
And that brings me back to the spiritual solution I have found in here. The same thing, which restored me to sanity and placed me in a position of neutrality, as far as alcohol is concerned. I had to work these Steps to arrive at a place, where I stopped fighting everyone and everything. Including alcohol. What a miracle.
Going and sharing with another alcoholic, like myself, reminded me of what it says, that in spiritual matters it’s dangerous to go it alone. Amen to that. Having the opportunity to clear the air opens up the door to the spiritual solution. I never want to forget that.
Anyway I’m grateful for all the opportunities I have in staying sober. Another lesson that I can’t stay sober by myself. I need everyone I know in here. Even those I have known, who are no longer around. Just the memory of all those people, who helped me get sober and showed me the way to a new life. A life I never conceived of until I walked through these doors. For that and everything else, thanks.