Today was a day in which to practice understanding and compassion. Doesn’t matter what form it takes. That and relying on a Higher Power. A few things wanted to get in the way and I hope I didn’t let them.
Of course it is Thanksgiving and a good day to practice gratitude. That was there through the day. Hopefully I was able to do this despite the schedule. Spent most of the day with my daughter and my granddaughter. Mainly my granddaughter, playing all kinds of games she wanted to play.
Anyway, when I got home I thought that maybe this would be a good time to sit down and think about the day, prayer, gratitude, and meditate on compassion and understanding.
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This is still all about staying sober, but over time other positive things have entered the picture. I owe all of this to the program and my Higher Power. Despite some heavy thoughts I was able to get away from them and turn the afternoon and some of the evening into a lot of laughs and and pleasant memories. And when I separated from my daughter and granddaughter I hoped I had brought something positive into their lives. I know the important thing was that I at least tried.
Yesterday was a day when we talked a lot about prayer. Heard a lot of positive things. When these are the subjects of the day I find that I always have some difficulty, because of my wandering mind. The human condition is still there. But I know that I need to keep on trying. Anything less is not acceptable.
So a lot of short prayers took up some of the morning. I know I need to reinforce the virtues I have come to know. Like hope and faith. Those two are often the center of my attention. But I also know that I have to do the basics like not quitting and keep on trying no matter what. I know that there are times I can slip into negative thoughts and have to strive to get rid of these no matter what. To be open and honest with others and share and then listen. And then do the rest of the work by thinking and acting in terms of gratitude and compassion. Being open to work with others no matter what.
I received a lot of messages today about Thanksgiving. Made me grateful, as I said. I hope to keep that attitude. I know that gratitude can be a feeling, but most of the time I find it to be an action word. I need to act my gratitude out in meetings and other situations which call for it. Like today.
Anyway I just wanted to stop and think about all of this. I’m glad I did.