I’ve been thinking about compassion and love this past week. That’s because I will be going on a Twelfth Step call tomorrow. I’m supposed to speak at a meeting and that always reminds me of why I am asked to do this. To carry the message I learned in here to alcoholics like myself. Hopefully there will be some, who are new and need to hear a story like mine. We’ll see.
Whenever something like this comes up I always go back and think about others, who did that for someone like me. Always freely giving. And I know that it always worked for me. At least after I finally stopped fighting the program and came to believe and listen to sober people. Examples I needed to encourage me to continue on staying sober a day at a time.
This is not my favorite thing to do. Everything goes okay, until I have to get up and begin to speak. I would rather be like everyone else in the room. Quiet and ready to listen. When I’m talking I’m definitely not listening. But I am doing something else, which I need to from time to time. Practicing this spiritual program by giving it away.
Reminds me of the Third Step prayer. Take away my difficulties that victory over them may bear witness to others of Your Power, Love, and Way of Life.
Anyway I was thinking about this tonight. Hopefully focusing on my staying sober a day at a time. My primary purpose. Might be some discomfort, but like the Ninth Step reminds me, that the spiritual life is not theory. We have to live it. Makes me grateful that I have been given this opportunity to practice this.