I was reminded today of just how “young” I am. Truth is I’m old. But the fact is, when it comes to life, I often think and act like I’m a teenager. I ran across this, dealing with an old friend of mine in the program.
His needs reminded me of me. It all goes back to the way I was, when I walked through the doors and came into this program. Like I was told, I was immature, insecure, and oversensitive.
I had to point out to him how human we are, as the BB said. We’re not saints. And this is something he was dealing with. Hard to do, when we have egos the sizes of ours. Ego deflation in depth is what is needed. I know my old sponsor and those old timers knew that and cut me down to size to help me grow along spiritual lines in here.
However, I was grateful he reached out and confessed he needed help. Every time someone honors me with this request I know I’m the beneficiary…at least that’s what I think. Talk about immature.
Again it is just an indication of what we all need in this program to grow along spiritual lines. The help of others. I remember how well that was for me with my old sponsor. And I still have old friends in here I need to talk to from time to time to remind me of what it is I need to do. Proof positive to me that I cannot do this program alone.
Anyway I really felt blessed by my friends openness and willingness to help me understand where he was and what it is he needed to do. Like I said, a great reminder to me of who I am and why I need to be where I am. I know from my own experience and that of others that from time to time I am a “control freak”. I think I can run everyone and everything. And that’s where I learned that I’m not God.
Made me grateful to have the opportunity to share with my friend. And, like I said, myself. It also reminded both of us that we’re here to stay sober a day at a time. Not yesterday or tomorrow. Right now, where we are. I know how easy it is to project our thoughts down the pike and end up buried in negative emotions. And that lesson, my sponsor showed me, is why I need to stay here in the moment.