Today I was reading a book by an alcoholic, whom definitely affected my life. His name was Sandy Beach. He helped people like me way back when. For years he lived nearby and ran meetings for our group. He helped teach me how to stay sober and what to do.
Sandy’s passed on. And he is still in the minds and hearts of so many of us. I know that there are a lot of tapes people have listened to and developed caring for him. As far as I know this is the only book he has written. It’s title is “Dear Friends”. These are “letters” he is addressing to all of us. Thoughts about growing in this program. Especially in the spiritual way of life, although there are other thoughts.
Today I was reading about “Surrendering our egos”. Whew! A great topic for someone like me. I had to agree how messed up my over sized ego is/was. I came into this way of life in the program with a totally mixed up way of thinking and living. I’m grateful I met my old sponsor, who knew exactly where I was at. He began to help me turn my life around. Not an overnight event. Like they say, times takes time.
But I liked what Sandy said. How we all have trouble getting rid of our focus on things which can continue to trip us up. Things we need to continue to turn over to our God concept. Like the BB tells us, Let go and let God. Not always easy for my over grown ego.
This is what he is trying to help us do. Exactly what my old sponsor told me. That my ideas, which can trip me up, will be doing this until the end. I just need to let go of them, every time they are clearly tripping me up.
Anyway I was reading and thinking about this and am so grateful, because it helps me to stay focused on why I am here. To stay sober a day at a time. I am often put into a state of peace and happiness by what I was taught to do in here. I need to thank my Higher Power, and all those who have helped me.