Thinking about my last thoughts on these beginning Steps, I once again am reminded of just why I am here and where I am going. What has happened to me next was not an overnight event. One day at a time I gradually grew. Like the program told us, time takes time. These first three Steps opened the door on a different way of thinking and acting. Like I was going through, this way of life and heading toward a really good way of living and acting. It definitely amazed me. I knew I was only at the start and not the end, but a surprising willingness came into me. I had started to begin to think about the God of my understanding and making up my mind to try to follow whatever it was I needed to do.
And the a”beginning” started with my first Fourth Step. I stayed up pretty much all night writing this. The next day I began the Fifth Step with a couple of old timers. The reaction of the first made me wonder if I had done the right thing, but the second man was a Franciscan priest and he went through this with me and discussed some things, which helped opening my mind, and I was grateful.
All of this began to open me to relationships in this program. I began to think and feel that I was in the right place and starting to believe that I was really on the road to recovery. These new relationships opened the door to compassion and caring for others, which I had not experienced in a very long time in my life. In fact, looking back, I can say that I had begun love others. Amazing. In fact I have a lot of these in my life today, who live all over, and we’re still in touch with each other.
Anyway I just had to stop and think about all of this. I know there’s more, but this is enough for now. I began this day with the Third Step prayer and the Serenity Prayer, so that I could start my one day at a time staying sober. All of what I was thinking was about my being able to live this way of life each and everyday. One day at a time. I need to again say thanks to my Higher Power, this program, and all the people in it, who have helped me to continue to stay sober.