Today I was reminded of the Serenity Prayer. The things I cannot change. A friend of mine reminded me of what I sent about another person, who has been in a riotous mind for so long, but just expressed peaceful acceptance in the way of thinking. When they questioned my thoughts I had to stop and think. I might be correct, but I cannot change anyone. All I can do is learn to accept and let go.
However I did think that I should pass my thoughts on, to help my friend to let go. That’s the problem. Learning to stay away and let go. On the other hand I really wasn’t involved with trying to change the individual. I know full well I can never do that. When I was drinking alcohol I always thought I could change anyone. Talk about insanity. That’s what alcohol did to me. It drove me insane.
For a moment I had to stop and think what I was like, when I came into this program. Those old timers and my old sponsor knew full well what was wrong with me. I didn’t have a clue. Fortunately they helped me to stop going on and step back and open the door within me to this spiritual way of life, and practice these Twelve Steps. Time took time, but it was what changed my life. For that I am most grateful.
All I know is that I’m here to live this way of life I have been given. Hopefully I can do what I need to do, God’s will for me. I know I had to learn to stay in this day. To stay sober a day at a time. Not to get torn up with negative emotions. I had to learn to step back and ask my Higher Power for help and to put this program into action. To help others like ourselves to get sober and stay sober, a day at a time.
I had to learn to practice perseverance in hope, faith, and love. Not always an easy way to go. I had to learn to stop my mind wandering off. My old sponsor would always try to keep me paying attention to where I am at the moment. However I had to learn that I’m not a saint, but a human alcoholic. I was told I could stumble, and bumble, and tumble, as I go on. My sponsor told me I would have to learn to pick myself up, to dust myself off, and keep on keeping on. I had to learn to stop and ask my Higher Power for help and start my day over. To go from the negative attitude to the positive. I always have to remember how much I was given by him and those old timers.
Anyway I just needed to stop and think. Makes me grateful. I need to thank my Higher Power, old timers, and all those who have helped me to grow and stay in this program.