Today I was reminded once again what I know I need to do, when things come up, which bring me to anger and fear. I know it is in the Serenity Prayer always. But it also is in the Tenth Step’s spiritual axiom: That whenever I’m disturbed it’s me that I have to take care of. I have to stop and step aside and ask my Higher Power for help. I also know that I have to seek forgiveness and probably forgive, whoever it is that I’m angry at. I’m not responsible for them. And a lot of times they have nothing to do with what got me angry or fearful.
I had to talk to some, who were going through the same thing. In fact I got a message from an old friend out of state. He’s been sober for a while and he had been reading a spiritual man, who helped him to get out of his anger and his disturbance with another person. He now feels free of that and is getting along with the person who had disturbed him for quite a while. I stopped and not only agreed with his thoughts, but his reaching out into the spiritual life.
Every time I have had to address the Tenth Step into my life, I have to go back and think about that part of that Step which states to us that the spiritual life is not a theory. We have to live it. That always reminds me of why I am here. I’m here to stay sober and not only work these Steps into my life, but to begin to live a spiritual life, as it tells us in the Second Step. That changed me.
Anyway it all helped remind me of why I am here. I’m here to stay sober a day at a time. I need to do what the BB and the program helped me to begin to do. To often stop and pray and meditate and ask my Higher Power for help and directions. To follow what I have been told in here that I must do. To give up control and step back and listen and rely on what it is I have learned to do. And I am to freely give what was freely given to me. Anyway, I am grateful for all of this and need to give thanks.