Today I was reminded of what it is, which has helped me along the way, yet the hardest to get my mind and my life on. And that is all the changes I have gone through. I know they’re here, but I still am not aware of what they all are.
I go back and think about my old sponsor, who started these changes and I know what they were back then. Especially my start with the Second Step and my being introduced to my spiritual life and my beginning with my Higher Power. But my changes were just underway. Over time I have gone through more, and it’s these that I have not much I can put my fingers on.
I know they are there or I probably wouldn’t be here. In some time I have undergone experiences, which seem to come and then go. They are what I need at the time, but I’m often never aware of them until I begin to recognize the results I needed. I still am aware of my gaining hope and faith, but love was smaller at first and time took time. And then I have become aware of it. Not all that I think I need, but all of that which is here over time. Amazing when I suddenly start to become aware of it.
And peace and happiness, which really surprised me early on, makes me so grateful, because it is still here within me over all of this time in here. Not always conscious of it, but when I stop and think, there they are. Even my stumbling blocks, which come and go over time are not all that powerful anymore. Makes me very grateful.
Yet the freedom from drinking alcohol is still the number one gift I have been given. And I still do what my sponsor told me to do. I stay sober a day at a time. My primary purpose. This is always followed by sharing and giving what was given to me by my old sponsor and all of our friends in here. I try to give it to those who want it.
And once again I go back and try to exercise my being grateful to my Higher Power, and all those, who have helped me to grow over time in here. All of this gives me what I know I need in here. Thanks.