Today is another day. It may be the opening day for this year, but the truth is that I can only live in this day and not the next until it comes. I first have to finish this day…as best as I can.
But first this day has to begin to start with the thought and the desire to stay sober this day. I can often forget this, but need to try to remember this the best I can. And that’s with prayer, as well as spiritually thinking. Aimed at trying to do my Higher Power’s will for me.
Often I find that I have to go back, because of my imperfections. My dumb thoughts or no thoughts. And yet, no matter what, I am amazed that I am still sober…a day at a time. And it never stops amazing me.
I often have to stop and think about how I got sober and have stayed sober ever since. Just that thought comes into me how I was given a miracle, which totally changed my life. I was really lifted from the hell I was in and placed in this totally new way of life for me.
And that was when I surrendered to the God of my understanding. It was when I prayed to him for the first time in a very long time. I had found I was on the way to end my life, because of the despair I was suffering from in my inability to stop drinking alcohol. Totally depressed. And that’s when I learned there was a place I could go and get the help I needed.
And it worked. I am very grateful to my Higher Power, who freed me of drinking alcohol, and opened the door to this new way of life. And I need to thank all those, who have helped me along the way.