Yesterday I got wrapped up in the First Step. it was that Step freed me from drinking alcohol and opened the door to a new way of life. I look back at this and then have to stop and think about what it was that began to put this new way of life into action. And, of course, that was the Second Step.
I often go back to this Step, because it began to change my life. I mean it was one thing to want to work these Steps and change me, but this was what I had never planned or thought of. It introduced me to a spiritual way of life, which was what totally changed my life. I know now what my old sponsor was hoping for, when he introduced me to that chapter in the BB. It was like he told me, that I needed not to read the BB, I had to study it. And when I went into that chapter, it woke me up.
Suddenly I stepped away from the way of life I thought I was going to live in my staying sober. Instead I began to become aware of a totally different way of living and thinking. I found out that I was not in charge. That was a huge change in my life. I was no longer in control like I thought I was. I had to learn to let go of trying to run things. That I was to have to follow this new way of living. To begin to rid myself of all those things in my life, which had torn me down and led me into so much an insane way of living and thinking. To rid myself of the pain and suffering that I not only suffered, but which I had dumped on everyone around me. To make amends for all of this and to learn to pray and meditate. And to help not only myself, but others, who also need to achieve a sober way of life.
Moreover I had to learn that I had to change my thinking from the future and the past. I had to focus on the now. I had to learn that I was to stay sober a day at a time. To make the day a spiritual way of living, even though I’m not always aware of it. In fact I was so glad that my sponsor and those old timers would remind me of this almost everyday. And it was this Step, which began to put this way of life into action for me.
So, here I am thinking about this way of life I have been given, where the First Step began this, and the Second opened the door. And I am grateful for all I have been given, starting with peace and happiness and so much more.
I need to thank all those old timers and my old sponsor, but especially my Higher Power. I need to be grateful for this program and this way of life. And, of course, each and everyone in this program, who continue to help me live this sober life one day at a time. And part of that is all these newcomers, who allow me to perhaps reach out to them, but nevertheless fill my life by reminding me of why I am here in the first place.