The last couple of days I’ve been thinking about all the benefits I have received from this program. One of the best is what I was told, when I came in. I never have to be alone again. Ever.
I was also told that I cannot work this program by myself or stay sober by myself. All this I have found to be true. The unfortunate thing was that, when I came in, I was so used to isolating. I really didn’t like people. I wanted to be left alone. But, if I was going to get sober, I was going to have to give up isolation and open up to others. Others just like me.
My first meetings were spent coming to meetings five minutes late and leaving five minutes early. That was until a big ex cop met me at the door as I was leaving. He wouldn’t leave me alone. Nor would others, who only wanted one thing for me; to get sober and stay sober.
I’ve learned the value of spending time with others in this program. I have learned so much from them. I’m still learning. I’ve learned that I not only need others, but when things get tough or too complicated for me, others can help me, where I cannot help myself. What I can’t do alone, we can do together. When I get off track, others can put me back on track and I can do the same for them.
I have found that I need companions, friends on this path to continue to accompany me along the way. They can calm me, when I am in turmoil. They can comfort me, when I’m lost and confused. They can direct me, when I don’t understand. They can help open my ears, when I become stubborn and don’t want to listen. They open my eyes, when I don’t want to see. They hold me up, when I lose strength. They can make me willing, when I want to close down. They are my foundation in helping practice the Steps of this program. When I’m afraid, they give me courage. When I need love, they’re there for me.
I owe so much to those who would not leave me alone. They directed me to help me find my way to the God of my understanding. I have gratitude to all who have helped me stay sober. I am not alone.