God’s will for me. What is that? I don’t know for sure, but I do think it is that I don’t take a drink today. After all I believe this gift of sobriety came to me from Him. So, to me to drink again would be against the will of God as I understand him.
I know that the night I finally reached the end of my drinking that I prayed the first real prayer I had said in probably over twenty years. I was completely deflated. For the first time I could remember I had been cut down to size. I guess the word is “humbled”. It was then I asked Him to stop me from drinking and I would be willing to do whatever He wanted me to do.
When I awoke the next day, the thought of a drink never came to me. For the first time in twenty some odd years I was free from the mental obsession to drink. The compulsion and craving were gone. I didn’t even realize it until later on that day. What a surprise. What a delight.
I also had to think about the power of hope which came from that prayer. If this could happen there was hope for me. Hope that I too could get sober. As I think back to that night and the following day, I believe that was the first time this gift came to me. Because I believe I receive this gift each day of my sobriety. We have but a daily reprieve…
Anyway, I was thinking of this today; about the power of prayer and God’s Will and the power to carry it out. Just a reminder to me that it’s about sobriety.