How often I have heard that AA is not always for those who need it. It’s for those who want it.
I’ve seen an awful lot of alcoholics come into these rooms and then go back out to drink again and again. I’ve even heard them say that they don’t need this program. I know that I would often shake my head in complete amazement at this kind of denial. I’ve seen and heard others say the same thing. They would just end up shrugging their shoulders in dismay. These people needed it, but they didn’t want it.
I can only repeat to myself how desperate I was, when I came here. I wanted sobriety so badly that I could almost taste it. Fortunately for me there was no question in my mind. I was powerless. For so long I couldn’t stop drinking and I came here and found a solution to my problem with alcohol. AA provided me with the answer to my alcoholism. I wasn’t about to refuse what AA offered me.
Today, I sat in a meeting where someone, who had been there a few days before and almost said outright that they didn’t need this program. Yet it was obvious to all of us they needed it.
I can only say for myself that I am grateful for my bottom. I never want to forget it. It drove me into a place where I could not refuse. It wasn’t a matter of choice. It was either that or die an alcoholic death. Who wouldn’t want it?