Sometimes I have to back off and think about what I’m doing or what it is I’m supposed to be doing. I know I can often complicate all of this. And that’s not what I think sobriety is for me. My thoughts are supposed to be simplifying my life and that of others. At least mine. And, if I’m being sincere I know where I’m supposed to be all the time.
All I have to do is to think of what I have been shown and what I have been told since I came through these doors. The first thing was for me to surrender to my being powerless over alcohol. That’s what brought me here in the first place. I have a disease, which is incurable. A disease which forced me to drink and drink and drink everyday for years and years. That’s something I need to think about almost everyday. Surrender. There’s still something of the rebel down deep inside of me.
Along with that surrender is the program itself, to practice these principles in all of our affairs. As I write this down I’m reminded that I know I should do this always, but, like I said, there is the bondage of self in the way. I need to stop and pray the Third Step prayer and turn myself over to my Higher Power and let go. Sometimes those things in the Seventh Step slip in get out of hand. Need to get the humility necessary and begin my day over again.
Anyway I’ve had a “busy” day so to speak and needed to stop and think about why I’m here and what I’m supposed to be doing. Grateful that I had the opportunity and the thoughts to do this. All this helps me to stay on the path talked about in How It Works. If I follow it I know I will not fail.