Great meeting today. One subject was miracles and the other was a woman, who drank cough medicine the night before with alcohol in it. She really only took a couple of swallows. She did have a cold, but when she woke up she sounded like she felt she was in Hell. After the meetings she told me she called her sponsor the first thing in the morning.
Made me think about a lot of things, as it did many of the people in the room. One thing I know, which came to mind was how often we need to stop our day and start it over. I know some told me that they find it hard to do that. All I know I was told that’s what I needed to do by those old timers. And eventually I learned how to do that.
I think how often the problems we have is because we are impatient and don’t feel things are going to change so why bother. I noticed I used the word “feel”. That’s because we don’t or won’t stop to think what’s going on. That sign over the door that time takes time is often forgotten or not paid any attention to. Nothing happened overnight in here. I mean I stumbled and fumbled often because I had to learn how to do what I needed to do. Thank goodness for my sponsor and those old timers, who pounded what I needed into my head.
I also threw changing our attitudes into this topic today because those thoughts which pull us down are our emotions and that’s exactly what we need to stop before they bury us. Asking our Higher Power for help and adopting a positive attitude changes everything. I have found that it works, if I will but work it. Practice or discipline is needed in this program for someone like me. Trying once or twice and quitting never helps.
Lot of good stuff on both sides of the thinking on what happened.
Then I had to think about the subject miracles. I look at my history in here and have to think that what happened to me is a miracle. What else could it be? I mean I should have been dead as a result of my drinking. The bondage of alcohol was overwhelming. And here I am a chronic alcoholic, who, as Dr.Jung pointed out, had little or no chance of recovery, and I’m sober in spite of that. But because I indirectly sought what that young man who went to him for help did. He found a spiritual experience prescribed to him and got sober. I stumbled into here and somehow found the same miracle.
That’s exactly what this program is all about. The spiritual answer to this disease I have. By doing what I was told to do, starting with my introduction to the Second Step. It was that which opened the door to this program. It gave me a spiritual way of life. Even though I never think of myself as spiritual, I do know that, if I will continue to try to turn my will and my life over to my Higher Power, I will have what has been given to me. Sobriety.