Something struck me this morning, which I really had never done what I could have a long time ago. And that was what some of my friends are going through right now. And that is the suffering of their partners, relatives, and friends in their lives.
I know I have gone through the same things over and over again in the past in sobriety. And I know that I went through them, but I had to turn them over and get on with my life in sobriety, but also my spiritual life. I had to turn them over to my Higher Power and let go. That didn’t mean I didn’t care for them. I did. But I also knew that I was not in charge. I am not a saint, nor am I in charge of life. As I learned in here, I have to ask for being relieved of the bondage of self so that I can do the will of my Higher Power.
I have seen the result of those, who felt they were not having their wills fulfilled. They ended up hating and being led by terrible anger and hatred. Some also went back out again and got worse.
I know I never wanted to lose or end my sobriety and the spiritual way of life. I am so grateful for the compassion and love of the God of my understanding. The overwhelming gifts of my Higher Power, which I never really deserved. The need to fulfill his will and not mine. To stay sober a day at a time and help others like myself to get sober and live this way of life in here.
I always have to go back to the Serenity Prayer. It teaches me that I’m not in charge of anyone or anything. I need to change myself. I also go back to the statement in the BB. that the spiritual life is not a theory. We have to live it.
Anyway, I had to stop and think about this today. The truth is that I am grateful, and hopefully I will keep turning my life and my will over to my Higher Power and my sobriety. To be able to live this way of life a day at a time. Staying sober. And I need to thank my Higher Power, and my old sponsor and those old timers who have helped me to stay sober and grow. And I also am grateful to so many, who have reached out and continued to help me.