These are the times which try men’s souls. I seem to recall that from history. I’m not going to wander off on this and get into things, which have nothing to do with staying with the program. But the mention of “souls”, does bring up a point, which has to do with the spiritual nature of this program.
What is it that got so many through the early days of AA? The Great Depression, World War II, and all the conflicts, which have followed. What kept all these men and women sober, despite all the pressures, tensions, and anxieties of those times? It was the 12 Steps, the fellowship, a higher power, the God of each ones understanding. It was the application of spiritual principles. It was all of these things and more. For instance, working with others.
I know from my own experience, having been through a lot of “soul trying” times, that, when I turned to the spiritual action of this program, that I came out the other side still sober. What has always worked works. It has worked for me and still works for me.
It is only, when I lost sight of this program, that I found myself in real trouble and probably in danger of that next drink. But, when I had put the program on my back burner, it was others, who helped me to bring it back into sight. That’s why I know that I must always keep the principles of this program as much in the front of my mind that I can. I know that not to do this can put me into peril.
Always I have found that the major problem in my life was me. I am the problem. Nothing can cause me problems, if, with the help of my higher power, I remember who and what I am. I am an alcoholic and always will be. If I will put my sobriety first and foremost in my life, I know that I can get through anything. If I will put the God of my understanding between me and what might be a problem, I know I will be all right. If I will trust the fellowship and go to meetings, I will hear the answers I need. If I will continue to study the BB and the 12&12, I will find out what I need to do to continue along this path to sobriety.
I’ve already been through the hell of alcoholic drinking. I don’t want to forget what that was. If I will keep my bottom fresh in my mind, I know I will never want to go back there again.
None of this is difficult, unless I make it so. Surrender and acceptance are the keys to helping me to stay willing. And certainly gratitude for all the blessings I have received, since coming into the program, is something I need to carry with me each day. I know that I have to do my part to earn this sober life. It’s up to me to do the footwork and do my part. My higher power does the rest. It’s really simple, when I think about it. Time and experience has shown that to me.
Anyway, I was thinking about Paine’s remark today. In a way I can agree. But I know there is a solution. I can and do live this life with as much peace of mind and serenity as my God sees fit to give to me. I have the joy of living, since I truly enjoy being sober and a part of this fellowship.