Just thinking of how fortunate I am. I was talking to a friend earlier this evening about how fortunate we were to find this program. We both thought we knew everything, when we came in, only to learn we really knew nothing. We sure didn’t have a clue on how to get sober and stay sober.
We got laughing about what we now know. Not much. Maybe less than not much. Oh, there was a time, when both of us thought we had learned so much in this program and were willing to tell anyone how much we knew.
But time has done its work. Just as probably it was meant to do.
Because as time has gone on we have found that we only know what we need to know for this day and nothing more. The fact that we’re sober, we know that, but not much more. I can tell someone what we did, and that might help them on their way to sobriety and it might not. And we don’t know why. We only know what worked for us.
One of the things, which, if we wanted to know, we can’t. That’s what God is doing for us. The mystery no one knows. We can only experience it a day at a time.
All I really know is what I have found in the BB and what my sponsor and old timers told me. But I am grateful to them and to the God of my understanding for that. I know that I have to dedicate myself to this program each day and remember my primary purpose. To stay sober and to try to help another alcoholic. The rest I have to surrender and accept.