How can I forget? But I do. How can I forget the 2nd Step? Something that I need to renew each and everyday. Came to believe that a power greater than myself could restore me to sanity.
How easy it is for me to get caught up in my thinking. Getting off track, off the beam. Putting first things first into the background. Putting other things before it. Losing my primary purpose and making it secondary. Thoughtless.
It’s one of the reasons I go to meetings. To be reminded of what’s most important in my life. If I don’t, the insanity returns. I must remember why I came here. I didn’t come to find a relationship, a job, to make money, to gain fame, or anything else. I came here for one reason and one reason only. I came here to get sober. And I did. How can I afford to forget that? I can’t.
I have to remember that I could not stop drinking on my own. My own will power failed me every time I tried to stop drinking. I needed a power greater than myself to empower me to get sober and to live life, as it should be lived.
When I let my “problems” take over my thinking, I forget what solved my problem for me. My higher power. I have to remember that, if my plans had worked out, I would have been drunk and probably dead by now. My sober life has not worked out the way I thought it would. It worked out the way it should. Not my plans, but a better way. A way that has allowed me to stay sober.
Throughout my sobriety I have had to face tragedies, family deaths and deaths of friends, economic reversals, failure, and a host of other problems. But the truth is that in every case, the answer was always spiritual. All I have to do on any given day is look around the rooms and see the evidence of the spiritual life around me. Men and women, who have survived many a “misfortune” and still remained sober. I know their stories. And I have come to believe.
That’s what I was thinking today, as we discussed this 2nd Step. How could I not be grateful for all I have been given? How could I forget? Oh, that’s right, I’m human, an alcoholic, and most imperfect. How great is it to be a member of this program, where all I have to do is to walk into a meeting and get all the help I need? My higher power in action in my life. The bedrock of my sobriety and my sanity.