Tonight I was talking with someone, who is overwhelmed with a lot of stuff. While listening I was reminded of the 4th Chapter of the BB. Lack of power, that was our dilemma.
And what is it the BB tells us? That we had to get a higher power in our lives to empower us to get sober, stay sober, and to be able to live this life. In other words a spiritual solution.
As much as I think I can do, I’m still powerless. That is, unless I open the door, like the 3rd Step tells us, and allow the God of my understanding in. There’s no door handle on the other side of the door within me. If I want to keep the door shut, then it will remain shut. But all the time it’s closed, I’m without power. I can sit in there and mope, feel sorry for myself, isolate, but nothing changes. In fact it might get worse.
The bottom line is that it’s up to me to get up and go over and open the door. Even, as the literature tells us, it’s only a crack. How many times I have been in that position in my life. Closing the door and retreating into myself. Letting myself get overwhelmed with my problems. Ego. As someone once said, ego stands for Easing God Out.
Who was it, as I discovered in working these 12 Steps, who restored me to sanity? Changed my mind, my attitude, and my motives? My personality? Got me to go out and work with and think about others? Who keeps me sober in spite of myself, my errors, my mistakes?
Anyway, I was thinking and talking about this today. Happy that I am still sober and have been empowered to live my life in a more positive way. I owe it all to my higher power and the people He put into my life to help me grow and stay sober each day.