Interesting day. Thinking about the word power in the morning and during the meeting, hearing a word, which caught my attention; sincerity.
After reading before falling asleep last night about the word power. Or powerless. Reminded me of the 2nd Step. The need for a higher power, who could empower me to live this life. Over time I believe I have found that.
But what kind of power do I have? I have the power to make decisions, choices. I have the power to choose to do the right thing and then do it. Or, just the opposite. Hopefully I’ll choose the right thing. But sometimes it doesn’t turn out that way.
Every morning I pray to do God’s will for me. And that’s where that word “sincerity” comes in. How sincere am I? Good question. Do I know what I’m really saying? And, if I do, do I mean it? Another good question.
Most of the times I think I am being sincere. But that’s what I think. Still it makes me pause and back off. Take a deep breath and start over. Sincerity was something I lacked in coming here. It’s really not something I think about now. But when the word was mentioned by someone today it was like a wake up call.
If I want to stay sober, I think I’m going to have to concentrate on this word. That’s my pledge this night. I have an idea it has a lot to do with the spiritual life. More to be revealed.
Anyway, all this relates to the pursuit to stay sober and grow along spiritual lines