To me the spiritual awakening is the solution. Just like the second chapter of the BB, There Is A Solution, describes the young man, who had a spiritual experience and got sober. That is the solution.
What is it? I know what it was for me. Or is. Because I don’t believe spiritual awakenings are done. Not in my experience. They’re what changed me. Just as Bill W. said in the Twelfth Step in the 12&12. And, as is said in the BB, it doesn’t make any difference what our convictions may be. If we work these Steps, it happens.
I was a drunk, who had stopped drinking and came into the program. But, when I had my first spiritual awakening I began my sober life.
Spiritual awakenings frequently occupy my thoughts. My meditations. I’m often amazed, when I realize just what they are to me. That’s because I’m not always aware of these occurrences. Often only afterward I become aware. Either something happens, which bring them out, or someone hearing something I have said, points them out to me.
Why do I think I don’t know what has happened to me? Because they are sometimes so subtle. Often I find that when my mind is closed to something I don’t think I can accept and then one day find my mind open and I have accepted whatever, it’s like I have believed it all along. When I finally realize the change that has taken place, it is only then I realize what I believe my higher power has accomplished within me.
As Bill W. said, I have become able to do, feel, and believe what I couldn’t before on my own unaided strength and resources alone.
I believe that from the beginning of my search for sobriety I have been provided for by my higher power. I may not have a better idea of how this works, I just know it does.
Anyway, I was thinking about this today with gratitude for all I have been given.