The Eleventh Step. Hard to ignore, if I really want to stay sober and grow along spiritual lines. Especially that reminder to try to improve our conscious contact with the God of my understanding. My Higher Power.
I was thinking about that this morning and off and on through today. And here I am again. Part of what I was thinking was about others, who need help. There were some right up front this morning. And thoughts about friends and relatives.
I’m not the greatest at this Step, but I do try to get there everyday. I know that I learned this way back when, like most of us. The fact that I sometimes find myself stumbling and bumbling is nothing new. But I learned a long time ago that I was never to quit and to keep on trying. I do.
I know it has a lot to do with my staying sober. Seeking my Higher Power to do for me what I can’t do for myself, which is a lot. Like I always say, it started back in that Second Step, which opened the door to this spiritual way of life. Slowly over time it has changed and improved.
That’s why I often think how valuable meetings are for someone like me. It’s there that I’m often reminded of what I have forgotten. What got lost in the confusion of life within and without. But being able to come in and listen to others like myself draws me back into a place where meditation and prayer become a reality. I never want to forget that and be reminded that I can’t stay sober by myself. And this is just part of it.
How often I remember what I heard in the beginning. Ask for help in the morning and give thanks at night. The beginning and the end of the Eleventh Step day. Once again it’s all about perseverance, hope, faith, and love. What I heard early on. And it’s still the same. Again what the BB tells us. The spiritual life is not a theory. We have to live it.
Just expressing gratitude and thinking about staying sober.