A couple of things popped up today and took me back in my thinking. Character defects, old ideas, and starting over.
It all started yesterday, when things popped up and caught me off guard. Just goes to show me how much I really don’t know. Then I had to deal with my temper. Had to call several sober people and talk and get advice and a cool down.
I was talking to a couple of people today, which reminded me that I can stumble and fall and have to pick myself and dust myself off and start my day over again. Not to forget to talk to others, who can help me to change in midday. Nice.
Took me back to my old sponsor and his counseling me over time. Made me grateful. Also reminded me that though we are supposed to live a spiritual life the truth is no matter how long we’ve been around, we’re still human and always will be. Saints we’re not. Not even close.
I met a couple of good examples, which helped me to pull up what I had learned over time. A good reminder. I could see myself in what they told me and that’s when I went back and talked about what my sponsor told me. In doing that it was a source of gratitude for me. A reinforcement of what I have been taught and what I have learned.
Truth is that this is how my day started. Meditation. A reinforcement of my commitment to stay sober and try to live a spiritual life. How easily I can forget and need the help I get to remind myself of what it is I am supposed to do. The Tenth and Eleventh Steps. To improve my conscious contact with the God of my understanding. Not always easy for this alcoholic.
Oh, and all of this reminded me that I need to remember not to take myself so seriously. I have to remember to go to the mirror cross my eyes and tell myself, “you klutz you’re nuts”. That always makes me laugh at myself. Not to take myself seriously but to take seriously what it is I’m supposed to do. To work this program and to practice these principles in all of my affairs.
Again thinking about sobriety.