One of the outstanding miracles of this program, at least to me, is that despite my defects and dumb things I think and say, I’m still sober. Just goes to prove that the Second Step works, if I will surrender and follow what I have learned in here.
I know from reading spiritual writers that no matter how spiritual we may think we are, we’re still not saints. We are human beings and suffer from what I’ve heard called the human condition. I know I do. I certainly witnessed in myself this week, when I reacted to a couple of characters in this program. Negatively for sure. Still dealing with that in my mind.
One of the things I know, which this program has brought about, following the Second Step is the spiritual awakening. That restoration to sanity as far as alcohol is concerned. That still falls into the category “beyond my wildest dreams”. I know, when I look back at the kind of alcoholic I was out there, no matter what I tried I could not stop drinking. And just to be here free from alcohol is to me a miracle beyond my imagination. Amazing.
I know that all of this came about from the help I received from my sponsor and those old timers, who helped me to put this program into action and opened the door for me to begin to grow along spiritual lines. That was when my sponsor introduced me to the Second Step and began the whole journey I have been on a day at a time. Still why I go to meetings. I learned I could not stay sober by myself and I never even want to try. Seen the results in others and don’t want to go there.
The reason all this came up was due to the conversations I have had with others like myself these past few days, including today, when I got a chance to talk to a friend of mine with whom I often identify when we talk about our character defects. Helped me to stop and think about all of this.
Anyway just thinking about staying sober is part of this journey for me. I need to be conscious of this disease and remember there is no cure. It will be with me, as with so many others, for the rest of our lives. I know that even though I don’t think about a drink that old drunk, who I was, is still down within just waiting for a chance to come out and take over. That’s what I turn over to my Higher Power each day. And each and every day I have been blessed with the freedom I have been given. Can’t thank my Higher Power enough. Or even those old timers and the people around me today. Thanks.