One of the most difficult things is to learn to deal with a close friend, who goes back out and drinks again. Like one man said to him today that he definitely was helping him to stay sober. Me too.
Over the years I have met a lot of people I grew close to, who also picked up a drink again. Makes me wonder, but I know we suffer from a disease for which there is no cure. And the chapter More About Alcoholism tells us that there may come a time when the alcoholic will have no mental defense against the next drink and only our Higher Power is the only source of help. And when we forget that I guess we’re on our way out.
I know from my own experience years ago, when I was totally unprepared for the temptation I was faced with that the last thing on my mind was my Higher Power. Fortunately for me my wife was standing there and told me to step outside and pray. I did and the thought of a drink was removed. Never want to forget that.
Heard a lot of good things from individuals in the group, who addressed his problem. Just an indication to me why I need to be at meetings. I know that listening to others like myself addressing this kind of problem is what has helped me through the years to stay sober.
I spoke to the person after the meeting and was encouraged that he had a sponsor. But I also know from my own experience with alcohol that we can be deafened and blinded by our craving for a drink. I know I was. I never even knew what I was doing. I just drank and drank without any control. I can only guess how it was for my friend.
I know there was a lot of those talking who brought up the subject of pain and anguish. In other words bottoms we have to suffer in order to surrender and accept our being powerless over alcohol. Everyone told him they hoped he was suffering enough pain to help him to surrender.
I know it brought my attention to why I am here and how much help I have received from my Higher Power and those around me. I know I say this a lot, but the truth is that I am truly thankful for all the help I have received in staying sober. Glad and sad that I was here today. Needed to hear what I did.