I’m always amazed with the help I have been given by someone, who is having a big problem within. The reason is is that it reminds me of me. What I had gone through and needed to get away from. Someone, with sobriety, would help me to change and start over again…and again…and sometimes again.
Life is not always easy. I mean I know that I have been given a new way of life in my being able to stay sober a day at a time. But, like the BB told me, I am not a saint. I’m human and alcoholic, and I’m going to stumble and bumble from time to time. And it’s going to happen over and over again.
What I had to learn to do was to walk away from what was going on with me. One of those things, which helped me, was learning to laugh at myself. Often times, early in the morning, I will look in a mirror at myself and point at myself and say, “You, Klutz, you’re nuts!” And then I will laugh at myself and go out in good cheer and a positive attitude. I know others, who do something similar. It helps.
Anyway I had a long talk with a few people about much the same thing. They had lost their tempers in some situations, or had worries, or felt bad because of something. Yet they sometimes quickly changed, after talking. Amazing.
Like the BB said, we’re not saints. We’re human. And yet we sometimes get worried and build our problems up, which weigh us down. And yet, we can all of us take the time to stop and change our day and our attitudes from the negative to the positive. In time in here I have learned to change and not let these things rule my life.
And most of that is the spiritual way of life. Turning my life and my thoughts over to my Higher Power. Stepping back and offering myself to be changed. Letting go and, as we are told, letting God. I know I’m not alone in here. There are those in here, who have gone through the same things and have changed. They helped me to change.
Once again I need to stop and remind myself of why I am here. I’m here to stay sober today. One day at a time. Makes me grateful for all I have been given. The hope I have received has opened faith within me. And that faith has led to love, over time. I never want to forget that and am grateful to my Higher Power, this program, and all those who have helped me to grow along spiritual lines and stay sober.