One of the worst things for alcoholics like me is one thing I have rarely talked about. And what’s that? Obsessions.
This reminds me of what my old sponsor once said to me. That I was to think with my mind and not my heart. It’s when we can get disappointed and can’t wipe our systems clear of what is driving us.
I’ve heard over time in here a lot of those, who get wrapped up in things which have pulled them down into darkness within. Can’t let go of it and talk about it and talk about it and talk about it. Over and over again and again. I know I had to learn to stop and let go of these things. I’ve seen what they have done to people like us. Driven some to go back out and drink again. Others have pulled away from meetings and their friends in here and stopped sharing and helping other alcoholics.
I’m not here to do anything beyond trying to stay sober a day at a time. When I was out there I used to drink constantly. Never ever want to forget how I was enslaved by alcohol. Couldn’t really think anything else but wanting and needing to drink. Today I know that my primary purpose in life is to stay sober a day at a time. Not to project into the future, nor dwell in the past. To just do today. Staying in the present.
I’m so glad my sponsor helped me to do what I needed to do. To think with my mind and not my heart. And I was glad I learned that I didn’t know that I didn’t know. I only thought I did. So grateful to my old sponsor and my Higher Power, and all those sober alcoholics in here, who have helped me over time to stay sober. Thanks so much.