Something came into mind, which reminded me of the way I was during my drinking alcohol. I realized I really never cared about anyone.
One of the things I learned in here from this program and the examples of others in here, especially my old sponsor, was that I had to learn to care about those who were like me. Alcoholics suffering. And that was to teach me what I had heard early on.
Early on I was told that, if I wanted to grow along spiritual lines, I needed to learn to persevere, then persevere with three virtues I desperately needed. The first was hope, the next faith, and then love.
Hope and faith I acquired, when I surrendered and gave up alcohol and came into this program. Love? That was something else. Made me go back and wonder, if it was possible, that I had ever loved anyone. I mean someplace along the line I must have lost the need to be honest and love others.
However, all that began to change in this program. I discovered I was being freely given love in here. Others were willing to reach out to me and give me what I lacked and get me to grow along spiritual lines. And that led me to being willing to Twelfth Step others like myself, who were alcoholics and wanted to get sober.
Over time in here I finally grew into caring for others and willing to go to any lengths to help them get sober, if they wanted to. Anyway this morning I found myself thinking about this and the spiritual life we need to live. I know that I need to be grateful for what I have been given, staying sober a day at a time.