Some days I’m really amazed at what I believe I have learned in a meeting. I know that I learned this stuff before. From my sponsor, the BB, those old timers, and the other literature. I know that I was freely given what I learned in here and am bound to freely give it to others who need it. It’s just that on the day I attend I’m struck by something or someone, who is sharing.
Anyway today we were talking about resentments and then love and consideration of others. I often am amazed at what is in the BB about these things, but rarely referred to these days, as they were “back when”. Makes me wonder. But it also reminds me how fortunate I was that I learned that from those old timers in meetings and in their homes.
Whenever this subject, resentment, comes up, it always reminds me how that restoration to sanity in the Second Step came to me. In fact it’s talked about in the BB at the end of the Ninth. And that’s exactly the time I received it. It states that we’ve stopped fighting everyone and everything, including alcohol, for by this time sanity will have returned. And that happened to me after an amend, when anger and resentments were taken from me. Never want to forget that. For me it was another spiritual awakening.
Anyway I was also thinking about the spiritual axiom in the Tenth Step in the 12&12, which states that whenever we’re disturbed there is something wrong with us. To me that deals directly with my faults in dealing with others. Whatever is my problem not theirs. It’s me and that’s what I have to go to my Higher Power and deal with. It’s the Serenity Prayer again and again. The Third Step prayer. And, as others pointed out today, the Prayer of St. Francis in the 12&12. These are spiritual things which can help me to let go and change.
All of this once again reminds me of why I am here. To stay sober a day at a time. Makes me grateful to my Higher Power and this program. Of course all those in here who are helping me to grow along spiritual lines and letting me share with them and others.