One of the most encouraging things for this chronic alcoholic is to watch young members in here begin to grow along spiritual lines and to practice the Twelfth Step in their lives. I know how it gives me a lift to hear their stories on what is working, when they begin to be contacted by newcomers.
I know it does take me back to what it was like for me and others like myself early on. I can remember what it was like. My resistance in the beginning, my beginning to turn around when, in spite of myself, this program began to work for me and others. My continuing surprise, when others reacted positively. I mean it has always been a surprise for me.
I know one of the things which always encourages me is that these positive responses almost always guarantees that the alcoholic, who is starting to become a sponsor, will continue to grow in their sobriety through this program. I know that’s what made me to go through these Steps in here in spite of myself.
One of the things I have to feel better about is the same experiences I had. I was truly having a lot of difficulties in my life at that time early on. Mental and emotional. Things having to do with my reactions to others in my family and outside. And, as I began to respond to those who had reached out for help, I found myself beginning to be untroubled by these. It was as if I had stepped out of myself and was concerned with what it was I needed to do to help someone else.
Later I came to learn that this state of heart and mind was part of the spiritual program we begin to experience through these Steps, especially the Twelfth. What it states in to practice these principles in all of our affairs. At least as I understand it. I always think of what the Ninth Step states in the BB. The spiritual life is not a theory. We have to live it.
Anyway I was encouraged by hearing these things yesterday. Gave me a lot of gratitude for what this program has given us all. And once again I was reminded of what it is that underlies all of this. My primary purpose, to stay sober a day at a time. And once again I have to thank my Higher Power, the program itself, my old sponsor, and my friends, and others who have helped me along the way. Many thanks.